First Published: June 21st 2011
Series: A Need So Beautiful bk 1
What Goodreads says: We all want to be remembered. Charlotte's destiny is to be Forgotten...
Charlotte’s best friend thinks Charlotte might be psychic. Her boyfriend thinks she’s cheating on him. But Charlotte knows what’s really wrong: She is one of the Forgotten, a kind of angel on earth, who feels the Need—a powerful, uncontrollable draw to help someone, usually a stranger.
But Charlotte never wanted this responsibility. What she wants is to help her best friend, whose life is spiralling out of control. She wants to lie in her boyfriend's arms forever. But as the Need grows stronger, it begins to take a dangerous toll on Charlotte. And who she was, is, and will become--her mark on this earth, her very existence--is in jeopardy of disappearing completely.
Charlotte will be forced to choose: Should she embrace her fate as a Forgotten, a fate that promises to rip her from the lives of those she loves forever? Or is she willing to fight against her destiny--no matter how dark the consequences.
What I say: I had so many mixed feelings about this book that I have had a really hard time trying to decide what I am going to say about it, and how many stars to give it, so I'm just going to write whatever comes to mind as I think it.
Charlotte's story starts when she is 6 years old when she woke up in a hospital with no memory of anything before then. After they can't find her parents, she is taken home by Mercy, who fosters children in need and loves her like her own.
Charlotte has always known that she is different from everyone. At times she has a compulsion, which she calls her Need, to go and help certain people. She tells them what need to hear to change the path they are on and better their lives. The older she gets the more frequently the Need compels her. Whenever she tries to resist the Need it causes her a lot of pain and it gets hard for her to breathe. She covers the pain and shortness of breath by telling them that she is asthmatic and having attacks.
Her best friend Sarah thinks that her compulsion to help people is because she is psychic and is always asking her to tell her what is going to happen in her future, and Charlotte, although denying being psychic still doesn't tell her what really happens. She is worried that everyone will think she is a freak.
The more Charlotte is compelled to help, the more she tries to fight it so that she can appear normal.
One night while she is at her boyfriend Harlin's house, she has a compulsion and sneaks out to fill her Need. While fulfilling this Need, she gets hurt and needs medical care. Harlin finds her and takes her to the clinic she volunteers at and there Monroe fixes her up. She shows him her shoulder where her skin has been peeling away and revealing a golden sheen. Monroe reveals to her that she is a Forgotten and that he is her Seer and there to help her. He explains what it all means. Charlotte doesn't want to be Forgotten and fights even harder against the Need.
Onika visits her in visions and tells her that she used to be like Charlotte but that she isn't any more, that Charlotte doesn't have to be either. Onika is very secretive about how and it leaves her with more questions then answers.
It gets harder and more painful for her to fight against the Need but with each Need she fulfils, her symptoms worsen. More of her skin disappears and people that she knows start forgetting memories about her. Discovering this makes Charlotte fight even harder. Sarah's life is spiralling out of control and while attending a charity event with Sarah and Harlin, she fights a Need and chooses to stay with Sarah who needs her. Charlotte and Harlin take Sarah to the clinic and Charlotte finds that the place on her shoulder that was golden has become grey and cracking. Monroe tells her it is because she is fighting the Need and that if she keeps doing it she will become evil like Onika.
Charlotte discovers that Onika and Monroe have a past and she begins to question what Monroe is telling her and worries that he is keeping things from her.
I can't really say anything else without giving the story away. I really liked the concept of this book and I think that it was well thought out. I mostly liked the characters though I found myself getting frustrated with several of them at times.
I am a reader that loves to be there with the characters and experience what they are going through and how they feel and with this book I found that most of the time I couldn't really imagine how Charlotte must feel. That isn't through any fault of the author or the way it is written, I just can't imagine how any one would feel knowing that everyone they know and love was going to completely forget you ever existed.
There is plenty of mystery in this book uncovering the truth behind Onika and Monroe and which is really trying to help her. Watch out for the big twist at the end of the book. It really wasn't something that I saw coming.
For me the twist at the end redeemed quite a bit of the minor frustrations I found with the book.
I give it 4.5/5 STARS